EMPTY MIND

I really don't know why I started this blog... even though the date may suggest/seems as a new year resolution, I can assure you that is a coincidence... I have reach an age where as people we tend to think that its too late to do anything (31 yrs)........ But the question is; what do I want? Do I need to care what people think, I am going to live this life not anyone living for me. I have listen to people all my life, I grew up strongly influenced and dictated by my mom....even simple things, like what to eat, what to wear, whom to talk and what to talk, even when to smile.....

I am married today, sometimes I feel I have become my mom,towards my very patient and loving husband.

I feel my mind is very empty, I feel I am not good enough, I like creative people, talented in any form, why do I feel so stupid? Don't you grow wiser as you age? I feel not....

I read somewhere, that "Education's purpose is to replace an empty mind with an open one"..... A simple sentence but seems complicating.....

Do I have a purpose living this life? I am a Christian and I have been taught all my life that we are here for a reason; but no one tells me what is that reason? And how will I know what purpose I am here for..?

Am I here just to eat, sleep, go to work, clean and repeat the whole cycle over and over again? For how long should I continue this mundane task?

By the way I do love my life, I just feel I can do much better than what I am doing now

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